aka THERE’S SO MUCH GOING ON RIGHT NOW
Thursday a week ago I had my first really bad experience at a dentist. I have somehow developed a phobia, which isn’t fun to begin with. When it’s just for cleaning and x-rays I manage, but with proper drilling type stuff I now fall apart, cry and shake. This is pretty awful. I needed two shots of novocaine, which STUNK, and will need to go back for either a crown or a root canal, only time will tell.
Last Sunday I hit a deer with my car. The first time in the 37 years I’ve been driving. It was VERY VERY upsetting and did some damage to the car, which goes in on Wednesday. Hoping it’s just the outside stuff, but we’ll see.
Thursday while at work I got a call from someone wanting to talk about the job posting. I didn’t know there was a job posting, and neither did my coworker. Upon looking it up, it seems it’s MY JOB, only full time, which I am unable to work due to family obligation, both children and parents. I was, understandably, upset and freaked out. Friday my boss called me in to tell me about it, and I was grateful I had already had my reaction in private. So now I’m actively, not just casually, job hunting.
Ethan’s support staff has started. She comes on Tuesdays to work on independence skills and Thursdays to take Ethan out into the community. So I need to make sure that he has something to actually DO on Thursdays. So I’m adding that to my research time.
My mom is going downhill at a more rapid rate than previously. She’s 91. Thankfully, we have an aid that I am friends with and she keeps my sister and me up to date on how things are going.
So, yeah. There’s just a lot going on. And a lot of it is of the more challenging nature of things, as opposed to the happy/excited side of things.