Posted in Birth Story, Kids

Happy 10th Birthday to My Miracles!

The Big Double Digits is here! Happy Birthday to Bennett, Ethan and Laura!

This is a repost of the email I sent out to friends and family the day I got home from my 2 week hospital stay (11 before and 3 after they were born)

Hello dear friends.

Some of you will know the following, but many of you don’t, so I’m sending to all.

I haven’t emailed an update in a long time because I went into the hospital on August 14th with a ruptured sac. Baby A, Connor John, had broken thru. Our local hospital didn’t have the nursing staff for 24 week old quads, so I was sent to Christiana hospital in Delaware (not even in my state). It was touch and go for a few days–I was on Magnesium Sulfate (very nasty), but came through ok. I settled in for the long haul of bedrest.

Saturday the 25th started like any other day. We monitored the babies around 10-10:30. Then I started having contractions. Before I knew it, they were 2 1/2 minutes apart and I was 4 cm dilated. They took me in for a c-section 2:00 ish.

Connor John came at 2:08 pm weighing 1 lb, 9 oz.
Bennett Quinn arrived at 2:09 pm weighing 1 lb, 11 oz.
Ethan James came at 2:10 pm weighing 1 lb, 11 oz, and
Laura Grace finally got pulled out at 2:13 pm weighing 1 lb, 10 oz.

They were immediately whisked away to the NICU admittance and I went to recovery. 5 hours later I was finally able to see them. Bennett, Ethan and Laura were ok, but Connor from the very beginning was having more problems. To shorten the next part of the story, fast forward 3 more hours to 10:30 pm, when the Neonatologist comes up and tells Jim and me that Connor will not make it through the night.

Jim went down to spend some time with him (I was still very drugged and was in and out of consciousness). He came back upstairs a little after midnight to see if I wanted to come downstairs. The NICU called and said that he needed to come downstairs NOW. So I gathered myself and moved onto a gurney and went to the NICU to hold my firstborn son and cry. He was SO tiny!! So fragile!! We cried so much! While Jim held him, he quietly left us to be in the loving arms of Jesus. Saying goodbye was the hardest and most emotional thing I have ever done.

Coming home today, Tuesday, to our playroom full of baby things, many in fours, was extremely difficult. It will take some time before I can face going in there without crying.

Our other three, like typical preemies, change from day to day. The two boys have heart murmurs, but are responding to meds. Laura was doing the best, but is now on a special ventilator called an oscillator. It pumps 300 breaths per minute into her tiny lungs. But all are holding their own. I have three journals to track their day to day improvements, which will be encouraging along the way.

The joy and hope of my three living children tempered with the sadness and grief of losing our son is a very difficult place to be. We are in the process of trying to decide whether to have a funeral and burial or cremate. I never thought to be in this position. Only God is sustaining me now, I can assure you. Jim is crying and grieving as much if not more than I am. We can only cling to each other and be there for each other as we work our way through this difficult time.

We still appreciate your prayers for both Mommy and Daddy and our three precious children. They will be in the NICU for at least 10 weeks, and we will be traveling 45-50 minutes each way to get to them. I will also be pumping to provide breast milk for the babies, so life is already revolving around them.

As I’m sure you can tell from the whole tone of this email, this is a very difficult time for both of us. Thank you all for your support, prayers and understanding. I will not be on email that often, and the phone will be answered as possible. Visitors are welcome, but we ask that you call first.

Much love,


Posted in Kids

Almost Ten Years

Tomorrow marks three of my four children’s 10th birthday.


10 years ago I would have woken up in my hospital bed, had the babies monitored, watched a lot of TV, and planned for tomorrow when Jim was going to come down and spend the night. We were trying to reduce the swelling in my legs, which was IMMENSE, by having me lay flat on my back with my legs raised. It helped, and to this day I truly believe laying like that kept the babies in one more day.

10 years ago I had no clue that tomorrow would bring stress, fear, physical pain, awe, and four beautiful babies into the world. Only to have one leave 10 hours later.

Tomorrow I will post my email that went out to friends and family the day I came home from the hospital. Today will be spent cleaning up for the party we are having on Saturday and being a mom to the children that God blessed me with.

10 years. Whoa.

Posted in 7 Quick Takes

7 Quick Takes Friday


1. So, ok. I think we figured out that I’m not the best blogger in the world when my kids are home full time. How you moms of small children and/or homeschoolers do it and still manage to blog, I don’t know. School starts in a little more than two weeks and then I’m sure we’ll see things pick up.

2. This week I registered at the opening-soon Snap Fitness. If I haven’t said it, I’m completely fed up with how I look. I really, really dislike the extra weight I have put on and I’m ready to do something about it. I’ve been ready for awhile, but there has been no place local I could go and do something about it. This Snap Fitness is literally an answer to prayers. Unspoken, but heartfelt, which God hears regardless! I have three goals–1. 20 lbs. 2. 30 lbs. 3. 40 lbs. That would take me to my wedding weight. I expect to add muscle as well, so the last one might not be possible. But change, HERE I COME.

3. We finally got some rain and are not crunching through our yard. Crunch yards are depressing. I say this lightly, although I realize that there is a severe and serious drought going on down in Texas. Up here in PA things are serious, but not nearly as bad. We are on water restrictions, which are common in summer–no watering your yard etc. No big deal. We have a well, but I don’t know how rain affects that.

4. Ethan finished his extended school year program yesterday. I woke up 50 minutes later than I normally do. I didn’t rush to get up and out of bed. I read for over an hour. What a luxury! 2 1/2 weeks and we’re back to our regularly scheduled life. Only with working out added to the mix! 🙂

5. Jim’s start date was pushed back until Monday. This is officially three months now that we’ve been between contracts. I finally told him today that I’m not really enjoying this “self-employed” thing. I’m trying to be supportive, but my word, I miss him working every day and having a regular paycheck!

6. I was going through Quicken and checking to see what checks had and hadn’t cleared. Oddly, our local taxes one from April never cleared. I called them and WHAT? They never got it! How the USPS messed it up with a preprinted envelope, I have no clue, but yes, I had to redo our taxes and then send them out again. Thankfully there will be no penalty.

7. Nestle Break and Bake Cookies come with a warning not to eat raw cookie dough. Hah. They’ll never know!

Posted in Funny

Limited Time

Guess what I just found out?

There are only 24 hours in a day!

I know! Who knew?!

If I’m reading books from the library, then I’m not on Facebook. If I’m reading my blogs then I’m not reading books. If I’m playing Garden of Time from Facebook I’m not doing anything else.

THERE ARE ONLY SO MANY HOURS IN THE DAY and I can only do so many things with them!