Wow. Seriously. Wow.
When I started this blog I wanted to write deep, spiritual entries that would impact you, my readers and make you think, pray, change and all that good stuff.
Only, more often than not it’s about my children, or my addiction, or just life in general. Not that that is a bad thing. It’s just not what I had originally intended.
This is what I wanted my blog to look like: Conversion Diary
Wow. Amazing insight and ability to say it well. I love Jennifer’s honesty, her willingness to let you see directly into her heart and soul and even her struggles with God, walking this journey called Christianity, and what that looks like outside of church.
Making it about the tow truck driver puts an interesting spin on the first few years of the children’s lives. Because, trust me, we STRUGGLED with God. Turned our backs on Him for the most part, to my shame. Walked through the “valley of the shadow of death” as David put it, but didn’t praise Him in it. For some reason, though, people’s lives were touched. People’s faith in God was strengthened, and ours, ultimately, returned.
Faith is not a drive from Point A to Point B where you arrive and bang, that’s it. You’re done. Faith IS THE JOURNEY itself. Learning how to trust God, in everything, and obey God, in everything. And believe me, that IS NOT EASY.
One of the things I tell the children over and over, is that when they are adults there is no one standing over their shoulder telling them what to do. It’s my job, as their parent, to teach them to obey God–to hear His voice and then to listen to it. Because that’s it in the end. We have the Holy Spirit inside of us poking us, reminding us, but as someone said “God is a gentleman. He doesn’t force you.” But man, does He want you to obey! He sees the whole tapestry. I see a little piece of thread and wonder why I can’t move it over there. He knows if I do that, it will mess up that part of the picture. Do I do it anyway? Sometimes, yes. Do I obey him and leave my thread where He wants it? Sometimes.
Am I looking forward to heaven and being able to see that whole tapestry? You Bet!